THE INNER HEALING EXPERIENCE UNDER THE GUIDANCE OF FR. VIJAYANAND.

At the end of my four full weeks of in-depth work on my overloaded subconscious I am indeed happy to put down a few of my growth towards finding happiness. Heavy under the load of a gamut of negatives. I had walked in to the retreat house sad, angry, and full of fears of the on-coming future. Interestingly,I am an accredited therapist with an overseas degree and have practiced counseling (both one-to-one and groups) in Pune and Family counseling in Mumbai. I took pride in the fact that I had worked in a National Institute for three successful years; but just as the popularity was growing, due to my own choice I asked for my return to the missionary field .This last fact was to load me with innumerable losses. My sadness coupled with anger was due to some false allegations leveled against me in the course of the last five years. Being wounded in my depth of self, it was not fair for me to continue our Lord's shepherding gentle work. I was encumbered with unnecessary baggage. My irritability high, I could blast off like a dynamite in seconds at hapless persons / situations.

The process, though very much like what we do in clinical psychology, gets to the bottom of one's complete negativity accumulated in the Subconscious part of our mind. When in western style therapies it's all talk and more talk, Fr. Vijay's original method is concentrated self-work. All sadness, all fears, all anger and what other non-healed factors have we, have to be burnt out one by one, event by event, right from the conception time.

Over all, I worked on my sadness cum anger for roughly two weeks. Guilt cum fear and over sensitivity for the rest two.

In this excellent ambiance, what I enjoyed most was Fr. Vijay meeting me twice a day. For me it was most useful "back to back" only talked about in the west. Fr. Vijay gave total freedom to work at my own speed and rhythm.

The much talked about "Golden Silence" afforded me with the needed time and energy to be with myself to do the tough work of forgiving self and forgiving others both ,at my core being level.

In sum, this inner healing for me is to burn every speck of the gunpowder of my
viruses and attain real in-depth peace.

Thank you for everything.